X-mas Random Thoughts

G-Town,

December 23, 2011 ( 2 days to go before Christmas )/ 22.30 ( with “Someone Like U “ / adele’s song as background ).

Yup, This Time, Think I am going to celebrate my own Christmas time all alone ( deep inside my heart ..), in this damn cold windy city ( Thanks GOD I’am still alive ! ), honestly rite now I still dunno what I have 2 write about, since I still feelin “tired “ eventhough I still try to smile, …

Life’s in here is beautiful indeed, I’ve met with a lot of beautiful people here, including all my Coridor mates such as , Rita ( like my mother as always … :-p, she’s Taiwanese ), Vu ( the Charming Boy, He’s came from Germany ), Stephane ( Our Coridor Romeo.. He’s came from Belgium ), Jacob ( The Sleeping Prince , He’s came from Poland ), all the Chinese Folks ( Jake, Jacinta, Emily, Paul, Luong, ), Kim ( the shy Boy from Korea ), Ali ( Phd student from iran ), Wael (The Family Guy from Egypt ), Petrina ( Our Greek Goddess)..Yup all of them are a good People, that’s for sure !

Even I like to stay in here ( preferably as a tourist not as a student please ! ) but I’ve to admitted that I damn Miss my Home in Indonesia a Lot !, miss my family, my Dear Angel, my friends there , and all the delicious food in Indonesiaaaaa…..

Livin Here for several months ( 4 months , maybe… ), already changes my life for a Lil’ bit., such as I have to be more independent, mature, patient and whatever is..my faith in here is on my own fuckin hand , Yup my Destiny is on Me, that’s for damn sure !...

This X-mas spirit make’s me wondering about all my Life, like why I am stuck in here, and all other questions that suddenly pops out from my Head, once a time a go I’ve said to my Friend that no matter damn fuckin happens, Life’s Goes on !, seems easy to said that kind of words to my Friends but actually not for myself, everything’s happened in my past life like always surrounding me.. sometimes I feel just exhausted about it..but I know that no matter what, I’ve to move on even just for “one” step ahead …yup like Ne-Yo said “…There will be Pain..but Life’s Goes On.. “ , for now, X-mas for me is not just like a celebration of the Jesus Christ Birth but also for the reminder that I AM STILL ALIVE !, yup no matter what, even for the worse case ..I AM STILL ALIVE !... and all I have to do is just keep on rollin , do whatever I want to do with a good way, tryin to become more responsible for all the things that I want to do, yup..I am not a perfect person ( that’s for sure ! ) , I made a lot of mistakes , silly mistakes !, but that’s me..even until now, I still tryin to find a “real” me , ..

Yup…there’s another X-mas random Thoughts of mine…. Merry X-mas Everyone !.... Stay Tough !...

GOD IS LOVE..THUG LOVE.